misery loves my company

when you are tired of grieving but feel guilty when time starts to do what it does…

this song was inspired by my grandma and what i can imagine she has felt while grieving my grandpa who passed away suddenly with complications from covid in 2021.  it was hard to watch her struggle with the grief of losing her life partner.  this song is for those who have lost some part of themselves and are stuck in the in-between of deep loss and some return to normal.

letters in a box

when friendships change whether you want them to or not…  

this song is a compilation of actual letters i received from girls i had been friends with since elementary school.  girls i would spend every weekend with; every school break; every minute possible.  girls i thought i was going to spend my life with. and, then, came freshman year of high school and everything changed. a new girl came to the school and, suddenly, i was odd man out. i felt replaced, and it took me a minute to adjust to that. the hardest part was realizing that these lifelong friends weren’t willing to walk with me through the adjustment. this was a difficult way to start high school, but also a great opportunity for growth. it allowed me to see my own deficits and has increased my capacity for compassion. looking back now, i wouldn’t trade the good memories that i have with those who were a significant part of my childhood or the hard lessons learned.